I am now trying to get in to a routine of updating this website every week, at the least! So we’ll start it this week, and every Friday I should be able to get a new post up. In case you’re wondering, the title of this post has little relevance to what I am going to talk about. I just remember being taught that blog posts should always have interesting titles, such as witty puns or quotations, and this is a direct quote from a friend of mine who got comically drunk earlier this week. So much so that he did not make it past pre-drinks. Very embarrassing!
Over the past week it seems as though my inner voice has been giving me hell! Everyone has an inner voice, I believe, that we reason with and often disagree with. Yet this week I seem to have had about six or seven voices! It’s been really frustrating, and I’ve been battling many headaches and states of deflation. On top of this, I was meant to be getting started on a new business venture with a company called Vemma, but I’ve had a lot of people let me down and I fear that I am ruining the business potential for everyone else involved in the Aberystwyth group! So the week hasn’t ended well, really.
However, last night I went to watch Carol-Ann Duffy and Gillian Clarke perform some of their poetry. This was brilliant, and I really enjoyed hearing two accomplished poets reading their works of imagination and expression. It also put me in a new state of contemplation: what do I want to do with my creative writing? What style do I want to try next? Where do I see myself in five years? Writing for a living, or wandering aimlessly on the debilitating road of life?
I would try and harness all these questions and the feelings I am getting from trying to answer them, in order to make something new out of them- but I cannot at the minute. Every time I lay some words down, those inner voices attack again and I end up throwing the paper across the room and cursing my self.
Hopefully I’m going to rise above this temporary feeling of stalemate, but I cannot predict when that will be. In the mean time, I am going to have to keep on surrounding myself with the company of my friends, otherwise I am going to dig myself in to a deeper level of melancholy.
Until next time…